As a child I experienced
physical, emotional and sexual abuse and neglect, subsequently I spent years
feeling ashamed, worthless and un-loveable. I felt as though I had no voice to
speak of it and nowhere to turn. I felt vulnerable and alone for the most part
of my childhood, vast amounts of time and space where filled with
imagining myself to be anything or anyone else other than who I was.
Feelings of shame, unworthiness and being un-loveable permeated
every area of my life and were carried through my childhood into adulthood. My
only means of defense was to shut down and avoid my reality wherever and
however possible. I learned to escape into my imagination; in there I could
create a totally different experience. I feel that it kept me alive at times
and sustained me until I was able to get the help I needed to recover from the
abuse and trauma.
The birth of my children was
in many ways the rebirth of me. I fell utterly and completely in love with them
and in learning how to love and nurture them I learned to love and care about
myself. The innocence of children is the epitome of bliss itself and their trust
one of life’s greatest gifts to be treasured and honored.
Becoming a mother opened me
up to the life within more than any other experience. It brought to the surface
all of the parts of my self that needed healing. It has turned me inside out,
upside down and right way up again. My children put me and keep me in touch
with my own emotional landscape. Parenting them, as they have grown through
every age and stage of their development has tugged upon every vulnerability I
held as child. It continues to bring me face to face and heart to heart with my
own issues and challenges me to grow and heal in every area as I respond to
their needs.
I cannot and have not been
able to shield my children from experiencing pain and some of life’s harsh
realities and that at times has been heartbreaking. What I have chosen to do is
take all of my experiences and learn from them, and to share the wisdom that
comes from that. To be honest and open in my life and with my children, to support
and allow them to have a voice in every situation and encourage it in every
experience they face in the world.
I believe that our children
come to us and through and into the world as their very own once in a lifetime
unique expression. I feel it’s our responsibility to protect them from anything
that stands in the way of being and creating who they are here to be.
It is true that whilst my
life has been full of many painful experiences it is also full of overcoming
them. Creativity has played a significant part in that. I lose and find and
lose myself in creative expression almost daily. Whether it’s writing,
painting, illustrating or sharing stories, I seek creative ways to express and
connect with myself and others. Through my creativity I have learned to tell my
story, through that journey A Girl In The World came to life.
The freedoms, creativity,
love and nurturing I aspire to and my want for my own children, I want for
every child. I hope to inspire children to understand that they are the hero's
of their own lives.
Melanie Lee…You can also find me at www.thecreativekind.org
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